Catching Up- Again

I was caught thinking about my long forgotten blog the other day, and found that it has now been a year since I last wrote.

Where to start as this has been the worst year of my life...

If you don't know, my wife passed away at the end of January from her battle with cancer.
Her last year was filled with doctors, nurses and hospitals, chemo, stem cell treatments and radiation. Every step was supposed to help, but ultimately they didn't. 

She was my best friend and wife for most of my life, and losing her has placed a large hole where my heart used to be. I miss her daily and the tears are never far from the surface. I think that I have experienced every emotion over the past 6 months, and many times I am so jumbled up I don't really know what to do. I have written many notes at all hours of the day detailing my feelings as a way to cope. I have had to adjust to the life of a widower and single parent to 3 boys/men. Running a home, shopping, cleaning, cooking, clothes. It is completely overwhelming.

But with the help of my closest friends, family and even joining her bible study group, I have been moving forward with my life. I am getting out and around town trying to enjoy this life.    I have even dated some. Life will move forward.

I haven't stopped cooking, so here are just a few things from the last few months.

 Avocado toast with tomatoes, basil cucumber smash, green and indigo tomatoes,

Heirloom tomato salad, a hot pepper food gradient, chicken tagine with purple cauliflower and mushrooms.

I can't say what the future will bring, but I hope that I will be able to make some good things happen again. Maybe I will even keep up my blog on a regular basis. Keep track of my Instagram (@theelhefe) for my latest cooking and other interests.
Here's to life...!